Midnight Boom

21st May 2013

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Tales of a troubled soul

The past 2 months have been the happiest for me in a long time. I fell in love with a wonderful girl, no ones ever made me smile like she does. It’s something I thought I’d never feel. She has a 3 year old son, he’s the cutest little boy. None of this bugs me, in fact I welcome it. It does make things complicated, but for her I’m willing to sacrifice whatever it takes to be with her. She doesn’t like to show emotions, she says she doesn’t have time to cry, feel sorry, and be vulnerable. I know it’ll take time for her to heal. But we’re all human, we need to show our emotions, but only to the right people. We recently talked about how we moved a little to fast, which we did. But sometimes you gotta run before you walk. She said we should slow things down, I agreed. That’s just how relationships work, is with communication. Today she went to mediation. Which is where she went to make an agreement with the father of her child, about which days she would get her son, and which days his father would get him. She told me they argued to the point where she got irritated with him. Now for some irritated would be upset, but for her that’s the point where you don’t want to mess with her, that’s when she’s angry. Well when that happened a lot of feeling started to bubble up in her. How she doesn’t ever want to be in a serious relationship, she doesn’t know what she wants. If I had been through what she had, I wouldn’t blame her. I’m just afraid she’s going to lose faith in us. I’m not sure what I would do if we break up. Maybe that’s a little to dramatic for 2 months but like I said no ones made me smile like she does. I care about her very much, I just want her to be happy. I’m going to be there for her. Hopefully as her boyfriend, and her best friend. Right now I’m not sure who to vent to. That’s why I’m writing this.